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To never know..how i tuly felt till it was too little too late....

I've had this close friend for the last two years i've always cared about him...and he always cared about me...We were really close..
Too close i should say...But not once did i ever cinsider him more than just a friend..until i got hurt and i couldn't go to school for about a week..When i realized how much i missed him and how much he was on my mind..and i kept wondering if he was thinking of me too....
When i recognize theses feelings....i was a little skeptical at first...
Because for one i've always thought of him as a friend..and two i didn't think i could fall in love or even like anyone ever again....
So alot was going through my mind...All the WHAT Ifs...
It sucked..then i finally decided i should talk to him and tell him face to
face.....
Well he txt me..the day before i was to go back..and said "i got with this girl jourdan i think she the one"....i relpied back im happy or you..
The pain came but the tears came quicker then i had planned...
I guess he never felt the same way...
I cried that night...
And the next day..
Once again i put a smile on...
And greeted his one true love..
IF only it was Me...