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>.< ohs!!! idk wut to do. i havent felt this in awile. its still so strang to mes. i mean i told him the joke behind it but ugh wen my dad finds out i'll never hear the end of it. n espeshaly wen my brother finds out. i can just hear em now. "i told u u so!!" ugh
it was nice to have some one to cuddle with n not try anything on me.but ugh!! this would make it the 4th friend to be going with.meeting Cody was a fluke. i only dated him just my jessica told me not to. lol n he only got my number from Marcus. lmao *flash back* haha spanish class was fun mrgreen
idk it might be too soon.Piggy says its too soon but butter cup says to go for it. Other jessica well umm lets just say she didnt have kind words on it. it was nice n i do admit i liked him from the start but pushed him away cuz i was with kittty.
ugh there is just something things i cant say.ive hidden so many things. n some how wen im talking to him i am more myself than with anyone.i let kitty in but never showed him how i felt about things.I think wut made us close was cuz we was having sex. i think we didnt take the time to get to know eachother. we just jumped right into something. i can remember the first time we really started talking. strange but i can. i was playing a stupid find the diff game online n was about to cry cuz i was thinkin about chris.*bangs head on desk*
this memory is too painful to talk about. it not just cuz of him there were other things going on at the time. :/
but umm yeah
so every one in this damn world knows wut happed to me but him. freak even other jessica knows!! n she has a big mouth n she didnt tell on me for some reason. i do thank her for being a good friend to me. no one sees her like i do.cuz she really is a good person.shes been there for me every time i needed to cry.
wen i cryed all day i called piggy up.idk y but for some reason talking to her about nothing makes me feel better.n she gets me to do things i'd not normaly do.she has a good insite to things n some times i wish i could be more like her.
Tess man she is the best.one day i''ll be as strong as her.but untill then she is there for me wen i need her n wen i want her. n i want her around all the time. we r hoping she will go with us to york. if not im going it alone.
man im so not looking forword to wen i tell MorningGlori about Maoquest. she is ganna teas laugh at me like none other for likr 5mins. her opinon is so scarry to me n if she would call me i would have her number so she can talk with him. cuz if she says no then its no. i havent told him about MorningGlori yet.i wanted to but soem how i dont want to make it myself seem like a crazy perosn.
i am so scarred that i might be rude to him.idk wut kind of things he likes.did learn some thing yesterday but so not sharing that one. lol idk i am nervous around him.idk i just dont want to upset him on anyway. its weird but its wut keeps me on my toes.
umms yeahs idk
wen we was laying there it felt nice.right....but then again i know better.proceading with caution.*bangs head on desk yet agian* Glo i need you!!!!! crying