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As i grow older, i've realized that sometimes you just have to appreciate what you got in life.
I've been through it all, i even had to fall.
to see my mother happy was like winning the lottery.
There were many reasons as to why i've cried,
as to all the reasons i've attempted suicide.
My father, he was a pain in the a**,
he'd put his wife and his kids in vietnam first, and put us last.
His paycheck, it'd go to them,
he doesnt even care about us, and thats the reason why i thought my mom lost all her trust.
I'd call her dumb for still being with him, and she would say...
"I know sweetie, life would be better without him, but i dont know how i will be able to raise the 6 of you on my own"
and thats one of the main reason why i wanted to die.
when my parents argue, she would be the one who would break down and cry.
We've always wished we could do something about it.
like help out with the bills and what not. but we were not mature yet.
my older brother, hes been in and out of juvie,
i've done things relative to what he've done,
for all the people who knew me.
All he wanted was to make money and give it to her.
you don't know how much we care about her,
she came to this country legally so her children can have a good life.
but what does she end up with, a husband who apparently has another wife.
All her friends would tell her to leave him since he has another family in vietnam,
but my mother was stubborn so i had to stay calm.
and as i grow older, i'll go on with my life as if he was never part of it.
i never looked at him like he was my father.