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Hello, you may not know me but, I know you. I know you are human. I know how you taste. I know how you look. I know who you are. You are me. And, I am you. I live inside you. I give you life, feeling, and love. Though, you may not listen to me.. I listen to you. The beating in your chest was my words to you. How can you understand me? How can you hear me? I do not know, but you do. But, only you. I am your heart. Please, can you listen to me more?

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"Rayne!" That was Jp's voice. He's alaskan. I love him so much. I know that he and I were made for eachother. Well, that's what my heart tells me. Jp's lips are so soft, his hair strong and beautiful, stopping at the base of the neck. His skin was the color of tan and his muscles are strong. I believe he is the most beautiful. I do not understand why no girl was ever interested in him. He's so kind, compassionate, and just sweet. But, I am glad that no one wants him. I want him just for myself.

"Jp!" I ran toward him in the school hallway. He opened his arms, then wrapped me up into his body-melting embrace. His right arm around my waist and his left, holding my head to his chest, "I missed you...Your family vacation felt like forever!"

"I know. I missed you so much, my kitten."

"Mmm, master..." Okay, let me make this clear right now. This isn't some kinky fettish. We haven't even gotten to that base yet. I mean, I'm still a virgin. We just like the names is all. Feels right.



After school, he and I met at his car. Yes. He has a car. Cool right? That's why it's so cool dating someone who's eighteen. It's awesome!!!

"Jp..?"

"Yeah?"

He and I leaned against the back of the car. He looked at me and I stared down at the crumbled, tar pavement.

"This is your last year in high school..and you will be going to college. Right?"

"Yeah.."

"And, well, I am a sophmore right now. I have two more years...we will be seperated. I mean, how can you visit?"

"I don't know yet..."

"...If you we won't see eachother, wouldn't that mean that you'll want to..break up? After all, it's long distance and--"

"I'm going to keep seeing you, Rayne."

I could feel the tears filling in my eyes. "But, what if you find some girl your age and then you start to love her. You'd want her more than me.."

He turned to the front of me and held me tight. "Don't you EVER say things like that. You know that I love you. I will always want you. Nothing can ever change that. There's no one and nothing that I want more than you. You are my life. I want to be with you forever, Rayne. So, don't worry..." He lifted my head by my chin and kissed me. I kissed him back with tears finally falling down my cheeks. We inserted our tongues in eachothers' mouth and I moaned. It was a very wet kiss. Very pleasurable. But, just then, I knew our hearts became more closer than before. And, I knew that some day soon, our bodies may want just the same. A powerful bond that will assure us that we will always be connected. No matter how far away can be from eachother.

To Be Continued in Part Two..