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what happened to me?
my throat is lodged,, stuffed with screams just dying to escape,, instead muted by will. my eyes are moist,, filled with tears just dying to fall,, instead blinked back by will. my life is dark,, just dying to end,, instead ongoing by force. i do not wish for death,, i wish for an escape. so will someone please frigging tell me why,, instead of having this wish granted,, were all just killing ourselves nd giving up? why is it tat i have grown so weak to the point of crying wenever i feel alone,, which is mostly always? why is that,, im sooo happy around my frends,, nd so depressed witout them? am i so weak tat i musnt go a day witout them comforting me unknowingly? nd then why is it tat wen i try to comfort them,, i feel as if i totally failed them? every single day i think of the sweet dream called suicide nd add more reason to comitting,, but in the end,, i kant bring myself to do it. why...
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