How did we get like this?
Don't you always ask yourself that?
Maybe it's just me, but it seems like whenever I look back on something or someone, whether it was for better or worse, I wonder when we became such good friends, or such horrible enemies. I dunno. Maybe I'm just weird. Like, when I look at my boyfriend - - I've known him for years, and we've only been together a few weeks?
Since it's been such a short time I can still remember, but it just makes you think. I wonder what is in his head.
I'm so afraid he's going to leave me. I think I'm just such an annoying person, and I really like him so I'm really nervous. Every time I have those doubts, though, I just remember how long we've been friends and how long he told me he's liked me for. Apparently he's liked me for two years. If he's been holding onto a crush for TWO YEARS and I haven't annoyed him, I guess I won't start annoying him now.
And, like, my old boyfriend hates my guts now. I feel awful for saying this, but I don't even remember what I did. I mean, yea we broke up, but do we really have to stop talking and all? Eh, I mean, it's not my issue, but I'm just giving an example of the other side to that sentence.
Now, I promise this is relevant - relevant to what, you may ask - well first off, WHO CARES IF IT HAS TO DO WITH ANYTHING?! This is my journal, ne? So if you think this is a waste of time, stop wasting your time reading it. But anyway... What I was going to say was.. I used to LOVE writing. Like, I would live off it or something. But then I stopped, because I did it so much I got sick of it. Also, I hated my writing - I thought I sucked horribly.
That sentence is a sentence in my new Oneshot that'll hopefully be done soon. It's a oneshot, short, sweet, and to the point - so I'm hoping I WON'T get bored of writing it before it's finished. Whether it's crap or not is a different story. . .
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