I'm not quite sure how to start this, but I have wanted to talk/share, this with someone or people. Started in the era of 2009, went from good to worse. During the time of 2008 my sister introduced me to my future~to~be bestfriend, she saw the troubles I was engaging in and gave me the right advice everytime. She lived a few streets away from me so I could easily just walk to her house or get dropped off. She recognized my weakness and told me to build on it, my weakness was being pushed around by my sister. Over time I started taking control and have been herd. At the begining of 2009 she got me into doing some pot and drinking, the school found out over the weekend and my sister deliverd the news straight to my mum, I then wasn't allowed to hang out or see her, I had lost the only bestfriend I truely had. It then leads on from there and everything had just got worse, I changed myself about 3 times, I went from being the quite girl who everyone loved to hate, to someone who just didnt care anymore, then it just progressed from there to an anti-social neglect and having almost no friends (IRL) so this lead to me locking myself up in a house, but I then started to neglected my cyber buddies too. Right now is the third change, and its weird all I can ever think of is death, it haunts my mind and I can't get rid of it. I think about jumping out of a window? A few days ago, I just let everything out and cried about everything, without thinking at all, I cut myself more then a few times, but not deep. I know i'm depressed and everything, and then when i go to smile it just feels wrong.
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Kween Vintage --x3
