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Nyquill because I was feeling depressed and I just didn't want to be awake anymore... I drank 2 GULPS of the stuff and I didn't get tired until 10...

I hate you Nyquill

I hate you...

maybe i'll just drink the whole bottle next time...

maybe then I'll go to sleep sooner D:

I'm thinking about going to Rite-aid and getting some sleeping pills so that I can fall asleep when I want to...

like when I'm depressed...

it sucks when you're depressed and you have a serious reason...

it's like you know why you're depressed, i'ts just that you cant do anythinga bout it...

like a tumor you know is growing in your bbrain

you know it's there but you just cant do anything to get rid of it...

it just sits there killing you slowly and painfully

and Nyquill dosn't do anything to make tumors go away...


Myquill doesn't do s**t...

so ******** you Nyquill

I hate you Nyquill

I hate you...

go die

why don't you go grow a brain tumor and die Nyquill

just...

why cant I sleep?

sleep is the only escape I have right now...

and of course I cant have it...

it only makes sense that I cant have the one thing that makes me feel good right now

that would be too simple

and it's not that sleep makes me feel good, its just that it doesn't make me feel at all..
sorta like Novocain for your brain...

sleep doesn't make my brain tumor go away, it just makes the pain of it disappear for a little while.

if I had morophine I would take it all the time...

Just like my Uncle when he had his tumors...

he was on Morophine all the time...

i'm pretty sure his blood was replaced with morophine...

and... he slept... all the time...

why can't I sleep?

why can't I have the little bit of relief available to me?

why?

no one is going to answer that...

guess i'll just put it in my box with everything else.

in the box we go...

maybe i'll try to put something too big in the box and i'll accidentally fall in with it...

maybe then I could sleep?

sleep sounds so good right now.

like water to a fire.

like... morophine...

I hate you Nyquill.

I hate you...

Go grow a brain tumor and then i'll steal away all the morophine and i'll watch you cry because YOU cant sleep...

and you know what?

I'll laugh...

I'll laugh at you Nyquill.

I'll laugh at your lack of sleep.

No morophine for you.

None...

I wish Gaia made a "Slightly sad, but saturated with apathy" emoticon...

I would put it (here)

..........and (here)

and...............................................................................................(over here)

...................and (there)