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Reality just hit me hard today, not your usual, stare "Life Sucks, then you die" reality. No this reality just came to me while in Chemistry. stare
I was figuring out some damn problem and i didnt understand none of it which is normal in that class.
But then a thought came into my head, "How the hell am I going to get into a 4 year college like this?"
The Damn thought nearly kills me,I wanted to cry (I refuse to cry at all now, because I deeply regret it later. stressed )
Then I thought about all the classes I'm failing this week, and I wanted to cry even more. The class i was going to major in, I have the Lowest grade....which was extremly low. I have never got a grade that low in my life.
This whole thing may be stupid to most people but somewhere in the back of head, I thought I was going to be in High School forever, but today I realize that's not the case.
I'm Going to be on my own, be paying bills and taxes and all that mess, my life is going to get even more complicated then it is now...So now I'm afraid..I mean really afraid. I'm scared of all the things that may go wrong and I cant handle myself in High School, I wont be able to handle College well or Life for that matter.
I say I speak logically most of the time, but when logic really hits you, I feel like an ignorant child and a hippocrit. (I probably spelled that wrong) confused sweatdrop emo stare redface crying