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I didn't want it to turn out this way.
I am sorry if this hurts you.
I just think it would be better this way.
I've known you for to long and i dont wanna hurt you.
So i am letting you go now so i don't end up hurting you later.
I love you. i really do i just cant take it.
I keep thinking I'm gonna do something stupid to ruin it.
I'm sorry for the pain I'm putting you threw.
I wish there was a better way to do this without killing your heart.
I love you so much and for that reason that's why I'm doing this so we don't get to close.
Then utterly hate each other when i do something that messes everything up.
I can't risk losing you as a friend you mean way to much to me to let that happen.
I know you probably think that's a stupid reason to do this but i cant' risk it.
This has happened once to me already and i regret every bit of it and i wish i could fix it but i can't.
I always have to remember to let go of the past and think of the future.
Every time i do i see me hurting you. Or i see us screaming at each other.
I don't want that to happen in real life.
I want it to stay a dream, an image forever stuck in my mind.
I have hurt to many people in my life.
I don't want to ruin yours by something stupid i will do.
You mean way to much to me and i never wanna change that.
We can still be friends and nothing could stop us from being that way.
I just don't want us to close then have me ruin it.