well its been a while sence i made a journal............yup
well i'm in Arizona(or was, im kinda leaving in 4 hours....should get some rest......) and theres something about the desert thats kinda helped me. I've really hit the end of my rope. Last weekiwas just about done, I had a broken heart(shattered is probably better) and my body,mind and soul are all completly exauhsted, and for some reason i tried to wake up with a smile, and basically lie, to everybody(including myself) that everything was ok.I'm sorry for everything I did to anybody, i really wasn't being too rational. I was acting stupid and being risky with my firendships, not to everyone, but to some(or most.....who knows ;P) really, being alone is part of the reason the desert helps. Personally, i hate people,cant stand 'em,most that is,but thats for another journal, hat i'll hopefully, eventually get to........one day. another reason,is because i feel the energy of the earth(throgh my feet) strongest here, kinda like feelinga persons pulse. I believe that if the earth was a purson, fire would be its heart, and for some reason feelinga heartbeat(be it person or planet ;P) is very calming. Another reson why i love the desert(besides the cacti l] ) is because thereare soo litte roads or buildings. If fire is the heart, earth is the skin, and if your skin cant breath, it dies. and sadly, you cant breath through concrete and asphault, so were slowly smothering the life out of Earth, which is goin to kill us. he nightsky is so beautiful. here's just soo many stars, all around you.....donno, i just feel that something about being here is just helping me et back on my feet. I think that i will be a better person han i was last week(even if its just a little bit) and i hope to recover soon, but know that that wont happen.
see ya'll later
-Jarrett
Don Keyote Community Member 
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