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As I was wondering what to write about, I just stared at the computer. Like it was going to give me some kind of idea. I began glaring when nothing came. So I turned on my iPod. I love my iPod. If only it was blue instead of pink. *shrugs*

Anyway, I caught sight of my title for my journal. I got it from New Moon. Yes, I am one of those teenagers. Blame my friend Jenee. She handed me the books and encouraged it all. Then I met Jacque.....I love that girl. Anywho, my journal. So yea, I saw the title. I thought to myself...

"Self, maybe you should write something about Romeo, Juliet, and Paris."

Then I nodded and began typing.

So, Paris? Why does Paris get to have anything to do with my journal? You see, I kind of pity Paris. He does love Juliet, but he's not the one for her. If Romeo never exsisted, maybe they could make it. But Romeo did exsist. And Juliet loved him with everything, and he loved her. Granted, not many people love so intensely when they first meet one another. They gradualy do. But Romeo and Juliet aren't many people. They see each other and know that there is some kind of connection they can't resist.

I try to imagine a different story. Where their parents don't hate each other, where they can love each other. And live in the end. It would make a good story, I think. But I can't help but love how Shakespeare wrote it. How he wrote it makes a great story. And there's those little messages in it and everything. The point, there's nothing better.

Now Paris, what does he get in all of this? A broken heart? The girl he loved didn't love him back and died for another guy! Where does Paris go now? Nothing's said about him much. He's not really a big character, but he's kinda important right? I mean with Paris, Juliet wouldn't have fought with her parents and run off so fast to marry Romeo. Or maybe it would have happened anyway and I'm just dilutting myself into thinking that because I feel for him. Okay, so he was uptight and blinded himself to the love shared between Romeo and Juliet, but did he really diserve to be pushed aside like he was. Who does? I've had my share of broken hearts and it's not fun.

Romeo and Juliet don't get their happy ending, like they should. Their love was pure. Crazy and idiotic yes, but what young love isn't? It was pure and true. They believed love was worth the price. It's hard to find love like that nowadays. I've declared myself lucky to have such a wonderful guy. The sucky part is that it's long distance. In my experience, I believe myself cursed with relationships. My past boyfriends, they were within reasonable distance but they were jerks or weren't ready to commit. I finally found a guy who is what I've been looking for, and he lives in another state. Now you can't tell me I don't have bad luck with relationships.

Anyway, back to the topic. Romeo and Juliet were a pretty messed up couple. Their parents hated each other, he killed her cousin, and yet they found love. Their was so much telling them that they should give up, that they weren't ment for each other, but they loved each other so much they didn't care. But, like I said, young, crazy, and idiotic. Poor Paris was forced to sit on the sidelines and watch without being able to do anything. No one looks at his side of the story. It's all about the lovebirds. That's the point of course, but Paris is a victim in all of this.

Imagine if Juliet married Paris. If Romeo left and never came back. Think about how things would have changed. But Romeo would always be on her mind. Paris would love her, and try to give her everything she wanted, but he would never be able to give he what she truly wanted with all her heart. She would always see Romeo everytime she closed her eyes. When she had kids, she would wish they were Romeo's, not Paris'. In everyday of her life, she would wish Romeo was there. Maybe someday she would find a way to love Paris, but nothing like they ways she loved Romeo. Never like that. But she would find comfort somehow, that she was loved and that this man was trying with all his heart. What if Romeo never exsisted? Would she be happy with Paris? Maybe. She wouldn't feel like she lost the love of her life, but she might know something was missing. Could be able to be truly happy with Paris? Would she let herself instead of wondering what was missing in her life?

Maybe I'm reading too much into the story. Maybe it was ment to be, that they died. Maybe thats how it had to be in the end, that it's the way their story had to end. Of course, we will never be able to see into Shakespeare's mind, to see if he had other plans, that there might have been another ending to this truly wonderful tragic love story. I don't believe he did. I think that this story came out the way he wanted it in the first place. So we have to make ourselves content on how he wrote it. We don't have to like it, be happy with it in anyway, but appreciate it. From beginning to end.

Love doesn't give into our every need. It makes us grow, makes us look at things differently. SO when we find that one we were ment for, we can love the person wholeheartedly. We can give our all. Love isn't fair. But we have to deal, like it or not. I was about to give up, then I found Tre. He lives so far, but everythignwe go through now is going to be worth the end. I really truly believe that I've have found the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. I'm young, crazy, and I can be idiotic at times, but my heart wants what it wants. xP

I knew from the beginning that there was something different about him. But I was scared, so I stopped myself. Then Kandi came over sometime after and handed me the phone. Butterflies flew through me liek never before. I barely knew the kid and his voice drove me crazy. We talked and talked, and I told him I kinda sorta liked him. And he said he liked me too. 10 days later he asked me to be his girlfriend. First person to know was Jacque. And now, almost 6 months, I am as sure of us as I was when he asked me out, if not more. I close my eyes and I see him. So, the love between Romeo and Juliet give me hope. Maybe they didn't get the ending they should hve, but their love was real. And that's what I want with Tre. And I know that's how it will be.

Love is worth the price. In the end, would you really want to change anything? No matter what happens, something good comes out of it.

Tre is my happy ending.

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