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back in the sadness
I started to feel good and very happy after a long time. I was willing to go out and date again. I was so happy, my heart fluttered at everything. but... just the other night i had a dream... A dream I dare not have had but did. I dreamed of Senpai. He was in a nice looking tuxedo, the color i could not recall. He asked me to marry him and i said yes. Why i said yes is a mystery even to myself. We stood at the alter. i looked like a real bride. I never once dreamt of my wedding day until now. The dress was so stunning. white with silver sparkles. almost as if i was a princess. just looking at my Senpai gave me great joy. My heart pounded in my chest and i couldn't help but smile with all my heart. But my dream was cut short as i opened my eyes to reality. I did not shed a tear even though its been such a long time since i saw him. and the fact that all my dreams do the opposite of what they say. Now i know sadly... that me and my senpai will never be together again. we will not get married, we will not love, we will not hold each other, and we will never live the life we promised each other.
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