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OK! Today there was an assembely or assembly or however u spell this and i was told i CAN take pictures of the guy who was dancing...Well another teacher told me i couldn't and i was screaming wat the ********! Wat made it worser was that she said that she gave it to the office to hold onto and my parents need to pick it up! First is when ur caught with it

1.) Teacher tells u to put it away (did she do tht, NO)
2.) sent to office and parents pick it up
3.) same but call home (this makes no sense)

This my first time getting caught! I was so pissed off. She sent it to the office and told me to go to the office and call my parents to pick it up. I went to the office to get my ipod and they said they didnt have an ipod! That teacher is a freaking b***h! She lied to me first off all and now im gonna kill her!

I came home to calm down and i asked my sister to get it for me and she said maybe...She said it was my fault..My fault for wat?! I asked a teacher if i can take pics.. Then in the mail i got this letter from my school. I think its from my teacher about my homework..My dad said if he got just one more call or letter from one of my teachers again i can't ever use my stuff (phone, computer, laptop, ipod, wii, ds, psp) He means say good-bye to my stuff..This really helps the situation. Then a huge monter storm comes by. It kills the power of some houses in conneticut. Then i had no one to talk to cuz my friends power were out. I had no idea where Yin was.

The stupid storm finally goes away and i eat. My elbow (has Cistic Hygroma) started bleeding (again) and it was dripping blood like crazy. Blood went down my elbow and on the ground and i had to clean it. I had to wait for it to stop before going into the shower and it didnt stop..now its too late to take a shower. And earlier i was screaming and running around my house screaming "IM GAY/HAPPY" because the storm stopped. I even ran outside and screamed it. Then i sweating so much.

Now idk why i am even writing this but i just do...i dont think anyone really cares what i do unless its drawings. And i can get pretty jealous and competitive. When someone says that another person did better than me in a drawing i get super jealous. I would then spend time on tht one part i did so horrible tht it will just take a day for me to change my style..Im still trying to stop making my drawings like chibis cuz one of my friends say they do but it pisses me off so much. In spanish class there is another good drawer (i also hate when ppl write drawler...L is stupid) and everyone notices his drawings. He draws rl things in rl form. I draw them in anime form except for some animals like cats, dogs, horses, dragons and ya. My teacher was giving examples and she said 'this drawing might not be good but its a shoe and for u ppl who r artists, try to bare with me' and everyone stared at that guy. Only my friends connie who sits next to me did tht to me. I was like do i even matter..Am i even part of this world?

Except i always think that. I dont do anything good to this world. Here are the many things tht didnt help at all, and i didnt meant to do some of these:

Im spoiled and always ask for expensive things:
Parents are having hard time paying for bills

Cant cook:
Wasted food

Earn money from chores:
baisiclly taking my parents money and spending on things

Draw...alot! like 20 pics a day:
Steal sisters print paper, using money, wasting lead, messy room

Messy room:
Parents have to yell at me

Acted selfish:
lost 3 friends

Dumb:
Failing LA and History, more yelling

Chores:
Dont finishen them, dont do them at all, get yelled at

Wasting money:
parents work more making them tired

Over-wieght:
Spend tons of money on clothes for me

Elbow (Cistic Hygroma):
Money waste, cant play sports

...ya alot of stuff. All i think i am is a waste of time, i shouldnt be alive, all i do i cause trouble to others lives