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I feel bad. I'm ill, I caught a flu somewhen, and that's terrible. I hate being ill! I even went out of my home today, as I wanted to attend a P.E. lesson, but I didn't find power to get to the sports hall. Actually, I even don't really know where in the town it is situated, so I decided to give up the idea to find it myself. I'll ask someone tomorrow or look up in the map. Too bad, I'm helpless. BTW, 'helpless' is my last role, I got it up on the March, 15th. The previous one was 'Helper', but it lasted only six days. Omg, I'm really helpless! Decided, when it's warmer, I'm getting myself a new role. Dunno yet, what it will be like, but still. I'm sick and tired of that helplessness. I also don't want anything like 'nerd'. I used to like that role. Before. Now I don't.
I wanna write some story! I feel disable to do even such a simple thing. Yesterday (or, actually, the day...er, the night before yesterday) I realized, that I have lost the feeling of a miracle, of a fairy tale. This feeling used to be with me everytime, but the last time I had it was our RPG with Alka - that one about Sunstep and Shidestep. It was great. But now I miss it! All the world turned into reality, there's no place for a fairytale in it! OMG, maybe, it's not that bad. But now I want a miracle!