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Seriously, ******** my life. Nothing's going right and I swear if there is such a thing as "God" then he must love toying and torturing me and my parents. After all, if he truly "loves all his children" they he'd make things work out for my family. After all, he's already taken my sister, what more does he want ?

I mean, if he wants my life too, then fine he can have it. I sick and tired of it.

I don't know what to do anymore. Over the last week or so I've been depressed, and hell, I've even been thinking of suicide, Not that I'm actually going to do it. After all, I'm too much of a coward to do it.

My family is trying to move, but things keep popping up and screwing up everything. I'm tired of it. I honestly wish I could just run away from everything and just disappear, but I know I can't do either, even though there's only a small handful of people who'd give a damn if I disappeared or died.

I don't know what to do anymore and frankly, I don't care anymore. I honestly wish the people that do kinda care about me would just move on and forget me, I'm not worth their time and frankly, it wouldn't be that hard to forget me, I'm nothing special. I'm just a stupid person with ADHD. I'm more of a burden than a help. Just wish my life would go away.