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Sometimes I don't like to close my eyes because I know as soon as I do I slip into another world, a world much more dangerous and deadly than this one could ever be. It's my mind thats toxic and poisonous. All the pain and memories come flowing back to easily all I have to do is close my eyes and slip away. I end up crying and hating myself even more for all the bad things that happened to me. People see me and say it's an honor to be cursed the way I am. But of course they will never see what I see. They will never understand what t's like to be me. No one will and as much as that hurts it's finally ok. I accept my fate and I will face it head on because I'm stronger now more then I ever was before, you hear me? I'm not that person from back then any more!