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Nothing ever happens in this town..or..should I say.. nothing ever happens to me! As if I'm living in constant placidity. It's not exactly a bad thing, but it's not teribly fun either... And this summer, this endless abyss of straw coloured flowers and pink setting suns becomes tiarsome and uninteresting..Oh, how I long for the life of someone else!!! Oh, how I long to be someone..new!!! It's almost like I wish something WAS wrong with me... like I was bipolar, or something!! Then I'd have something to blame for all these emotions and crap!! Maybe that's what's wrong with me!! I wish that there was something wrong with me!! I just feel so..ununique..compared to my friends, there lifes, there summer romances..there..everything!!!! I don't belong!!!!! Not TO anyone, and definatly not WITH anyone!!!

Look at me!! I can write a song, but I can't expect a soul to care!! And I'm takeing the long way home for no reason!!!Stuffing aces up my sleeves and never useing them...ending up loseing all my money in one game!! Apparently I can't play poker...maybe it's my poker face..OR just my face in general!! I''m as ugly as ********!!!! No, uglier than ********! And what I've done isn't helping! It was a stupid thing to do... but what it is, I'll never tell, I'll never tell!!! Guessing gets you no where!!! Or does it?

Ask me about my crushes!! And I will answer..What crushes? That's right!! You hear me?!? I don't like him anymore! It was an amazing discovery of mine!! Some recollection caused me to snap back into free spirit Rachel!! I'm cured..but you all probibly don't care.. you'r all sayibng..oh...she's bluffing!!! But remeber..I'm not good at poker, am I?

Ok!! Now time for some songs!!

Dirty Business: The Dresden Dolls

Raise your glass
We have incorporated
Place your bets
We're all so sick of waiting
Queen takes jack
You got me this time but i"ll get you back
So pick a number

To all the ones who tried the most was I supposed to cheer your efforts
Sorry that I chose so poorly
Golly gee, am I the poster girl?

She's the kind of girl who looks for love in all the lonely places
The kind who comes to poker pockets stuffed with kings and aces
She's the kind of girl who only asks you over when its raining
Just to make you lie there catching water dripping from the ceiling

Lift your hats
Off to the checkout girls with tattooed backs
They'd make an angels skin crawl
If you ask them for assistance
There's an even chance
You'll get a number

To all the girls at pearl the surly boys who get to masticate them
I've a prize for each and every one of you so just be patient
To all the ones that hated me the most a toast
You really had me going for a second I was nervous, boy, am I the poster girl?

She's the kind of girl who gets her slings and arrows from the dumpster
The kind who tells you she's bipolar just to make you trust her
She's the kind of girl who leaves out condoms on the bedroom dresser
Just to make you jealous of the men she ******** before you met her

To all the ones who thought they knew me best a test to prove your prowess
Who was mine in '99? I want last names and current status
To all the ones who hated me the most a toast you really had me going for second I was nervous, boy, am I the poster girl
for some suburban sickness? Better keep a healthy distance
Now its up to you know what to do its pretty
Dirty business

Purple Haze: Jimi Hendrix

Purple haze all in my brain
Lately things just don't seem the same
Actin' funny, but I don't know why
'Scuse me while I kiss the sky

Purple haze all around
Don't know if I'm comin' up or down
Am I happy or in misery?
Whatever it is that girl put a spell on me

Purple haze all in my eyes
Don't know if it's day or night
You got me blowin', blowin' my mind
Is it tomorrow, or just the end of time?

Oh Sailor: Fiona Apple: (Siobhan, you would like her)

I'm undecided about you again
I can be right that you're not here
It's double sided 'cause I ruined it all
But also saved myself
by never believing you dear

Everything good I deem too good to be true
Everything else is just a bore
Everything I have to look forward to
Has a pretty painful and very imposing before

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards

I have too been playing with fifty-two cards
Just 'cause I play so far from my vest
Whatever I've got, I've got no reason to guard
What could I do but spend my best

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards

And after waiting, fighting patiently on my knees
All the other stuff tired itself out first, not me
And in its wake appeared the touch and call of a different breed
One of the steps is getting wise and got me there and then got me

And what a thing to know what could be instead
Oh what a blessed curse to see
Took the agenda from its place in my bed
Made a merry paramour of me

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Given the eyes to view it
As it goes by the boards

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Given the eyes to view it
As it goes by the boards

Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Given the eyes to view it
As it goes by the boards