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life sucks.i just want to be friends.why is that so wrong?why cant i just be happy?why does fate allways turn on me?why cant i have someone to hold?why cant i have freinds who like me as much as i like them?i want it .i want it bad .i want it.thelonging is eating me alive.all i ever wanted.why?i love them.all of them.but they all act as though they hate me.never hate anyone.never let anyone hate you.its the worst thing possible.it sucks.why cant it just be like i want it to be?why?why are people so cruel?its not just a game anymore.i want it.so bad.why are they tuanting me?showing me how it could have been?why?too see her where i should be......never.......hate.....anyone.i could have change it all.no.its not my fualt.just........why?she steals my source of life.mysource of love.my source of all happiness.she steals them from me.why cant i sa anything?why am i so weak?why does she hate me?it wasnt my fualt.i couldnt help it.i just want it to come to a stop.i want it to b like that.like how i want it to be.want.....longing.....