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Today I was asked to break a 5x5 feet tree trunk…I thought it was impossible. When my master gave one swift chop, he ripped his trunk in 2. I knew I could do it if a human could, so I gave a go at it. I ended up cracking my hand and snapping it back in place. Then Haiti said, “If you’re going to break this log you must use at least 70% of your real strength!” I knew that sounded impossible, but he said something about looking into yourself and finding the inner power. As a demon this was easy…but the human part wouldn’t let me get it out. After 2 hours of trying to break the log, Master gave me trainee weights. These things were over 100 pounds, but they were only gloves and boots. The longer i wear them, the heavier they get! Haiti said when you become a master at D.S. you can make things heavier then they are. So I decided to wear the weights for about 8 hours. By the end of the day my Master told me to take off the weights and see if I can break the log. This time I was sure I could break it! Yet again, I broke my hand. I told my master I was sure…then he yelled, “You can’t be sure, you have to KNOW!” Since it was late out we all decided to sleep, we all needed are rest. For some reason I always sleep standing up, leaning against a wall. I guess I just felt unsafe…and my new weights weren’t making it easier, this time… 150lbs.