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i failed college

but i can drive

i might lose my job

but i might not

i lost all my friends

but the internet ones are easy to find

dad is loud

mom is calm

sister is vengeful

cousin is there

2012: I shall survive till the end

Fear

it seems so simple

to be totally afriad of something.

it could hurt you

you might fall

what if you died?

but my fear is different than yours

he lurks in the light

he waits for a calm moment

there is only tiny a bit of stress

THEN HE BITES ME

KNAWS ON MY NERVES

RIPS AWAY SLICES OF MY SOUL

FOREVER ONCE AGAIN SCARING MY SOUL.....

and then he fades

slowly into nothingness

leaving me to question my sanity

and redefining the word FEAR

So here I am again. Back to a thing I was once obsessing over then dropped for the longest time. And guess what? I'm back again, almost obsessed. But can you really get over something your in love with? I love dragons. I love animals. Math is almost cool. Can I really drop the things that make me who I am? I'm so insecure about these things, these feelings of amazement and curiousity. But will they kill me like the cat? Who ventured far and delved deep only to lose its life?