Really though, I find myself at a position where, best friends, were more than best friends. They became something like how air is for humans or meat is for a T rex, and then I had to stretch it like water is for a camel. I don't have the ability to drop kick or go to the movies with Nick, stay up late, watch Disney movies, or cry with Joleen, or just be myself around Matt, Milo, and co. I'm reduced to texting, chatting, maybe even the occasional email here and there.
Where am I taking this tangent? Maybe New Zealand. So I take this as an opportunity to grow. Grow in God, myself, and develop a whole different aspect of mind. When you're in America you need it. Everything is want want want. I need to learn to give give give, or control a stronger patience for those who really need it. I sit here in a comfortable house, with food in the fridge, a roof with a/c, and a family with undying love. Whereas those who I idly past in the hallways are endeavored with pain in their heart because their mom is getting a divorce, not because so and so broke up with so and so.
So with a smile on my face for the days to come, I'm going to take it as a challenge, a goal per say. To help as many as I can, not out of sympathy but for the better, the will of God perhaps. Point being, when life isn't the rye bread that makes you high, keep up with what you need to do and stop complaining about want want want. I can want my friends' day in day out. It's not going to change for a while. So be happy with what's in front of you, like that little red wagon, or the Alyssa that jumps in your life. Most importantly be thankful, because you're not always going to have internet or a phone. What will you do then?
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