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I want to be Mrs. Landers, I want to be with you forever and always. I can't stand not being near you. I want you to hold me in your arms and never let me go. You are the sweetest guy I have ever met. You are charming and handsome and adorable, cute and sexy and funny and lovable and wonderful and PERFECT!!! I love you with all of my heart, mentally, emotionally, physically, and even sexually, but will save that good stuff for when I turn 18 as we promised! 3nodding You are all I ever wanted that I had no idea I NEEDED! You keep me going, you make me stronger, you are my every inspiration, my every desire, when my heart breaks you are the only one who can truly make it whole every single time it gets chipped, when I am sad you know just what to say, the perfect words to make me cry of happiness rather than sadness. I always want to be in your arms and in your heart!

I love you more with every passing second!

I love Mat sooooo much. His name on gaia is Zilfer he is the best boyfriend ever! But I miss him so much. I can't wait to see him again! 3nodding

He is my boyfriend! lol And yeah I know I said I luvd the last one and he turned out to be a dud but i have a good feeling about Mat! Knowing that I am his first girlfriend he probably won't cheat on me, I mean i not for sure but it is quite possible he won't! lol And that other guy I found out he left me because this one gurl he also had a crush on broke up with her boyfriend and asked him out so I'm guessing that was why! And I don't think Mat will leave me for someone else or break up with me because his mom said he couldn't have a girlfriend until his grades were up (bull ******** s**t) then the next day be seen kissing another girl, or break up with me because i wouldn't have sex with him! So Yeah I think I'm good! lo By the way all those things I believe he wont do are examples of what past boyfriends of mine did to me! Nice huh? I guess I was in to the bad boyz! lol

On a much lighter note, ....no I'm nt in-love ad no I don't have a new boyfriend, nd last time I asked someone out he said "I think we should just be friends!" (now I no how all the guys I have said no to feel, I'm sorry) but no I am just happy and I have no idea why! Nothing is to be happy about, my sister moved to Boston so I won't see her well almost at all, and all that other crap but for some reason I am okay, I am happy! Oh well! lol xd

I am sort of sad! I don't know what to say except that I have hurt alot of people and been hurt by alot of people! So much has been going on lately like, moving, and my sister leaving and getting into online school, and leaving my friens and hen my boyfriend breaking p with me I just give up! No I am not emo and I'm not depressed I just can't really ever be optimistic because the the worst always comes before the best and so far the only thin that is good out of all this crap is that our new huse looks nice! Wow that just makes everything perfect, um yeah....NOT!!!

It wasn't nice, it wasn't mutual, but I don't hate him at all! It was very rude the way he said it and it broke my heart and made me cry but I do not wish bad/ ill well upon him! I appretiate the offers my friends but I would rather just leave it alone! I am not speaking to him for along time (idk maybe never again, but I sure hope not even if he was a bad boyfriend he was a good friend to me) but I do not hate him and I do not wish him dead! sad I know a little sad note from me, but oh well! 3nodding

For everyone who does not like me well screw you!
You can either luv me or cram it!
I hate it when one of my friends just decides that I am annoying therefore they must "hate" me all of a sudden! Like this guy Dan he was my friend (actually more like acquaintances) and then one day he just said he hates me!