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Why am I doing this-waiting up for you, when I know you wouldn't do the same for me? Why am I losing sleep over you? I don't think it's because I love you.
I was going to leave you a note, but you'd have been very angry if I decided to up and kick the bucket and all you had was a note to remember me by.
Then again, what do I care? Times when you should have been thinking of me, your mind was someplace else. I suppose I deserve to be selfish, too.
I think what was 'we' is dying or dead, so why are we trying so hard to maintain its polish? Maybe it's comfort on my end, but the tears I've cried and the frustration I've had to bear recently is all too much, and I'm just about ready to step outside of my comfort zone. I'm done trying to be happy- happiness is a farce and true love is a relic. I simply want to pass away into the earth and sleep. Too bad I'm too young to die naturally in my sleep.

I knew it...while I waited, you slumbered. The way we feel about each other...it's too different.