I dont know, should I do this more daily? Only two people have viewed my entire journal here, so I guess I'm not that important. I havent really got "Popular" on Gaia, but thats fine. I'm entertained anyway. I like making my Avi. It is fun. But I seem like I am slipping backwards. I look at the things I wrote years ago, but it looks as if I have lost something that gave me what i thought was a spark of intelligent thought, but I guess not. All the years of self loathing, and now I sound like an egotist. I have never liked the way I look, and since I have Body Dysmorphia, it doesnt help at all. So the only value I really could place on myself was on my mind, but I feel as if I am losing that too. Well, I feel okay, so I will make it though, I still have to find my inner self I guess.
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