I had a hard night. I have been talking with a close old ex. I have missed him so much, but the type of person I am is keeping my stubborn side out. I am holding him at arms distance. stare Knowing that I shouldn't go back down that road even tho every part of my heart is saying why not. You know yourself well. You should come out in one piece. Don't worry about the future just worry about now. Well sure, I know I will be fine but he is still just confused about his feelings as he is about the life he lives. So how can I intrude bring old feelings to the surface that he shouldn't have to deal with. He says he is worried about breaking me. He shouldn't. I am hard headed and strong willed and will do as i please. That is how I am, that is how I protect myself from the many things that can harm a person emotionally. He should worry more about the many girls who like to play with boys emotions and the girls that will throw them self's at any man that shows an opportunity. Now If you are one of those girls, I am not judging you. I am stating how I see many things in this world. It just happens that I know very well all of the desires and temptations that can approach. I would have easily gone down that road a long time ago. Except I figure out that most men look for something that will keep them intrigued and curious. something exciting and fun. Nothing to modern and unoriginal. exclaim Otherwise what would they have to Bragg about to their friends other than the fact that you great in bed? So anyways I can and refuse to admit these feelings out loud, because to me it shows weakness . I will never show my weakness. Also a close friend of mine is recovering from a broken heart. She is really struggling because she gave everything to this guy who was confused about who he wanted or who he was. So to all those with a broken heart. PM and I will share some advice with you. Also to those who just started a relationship, I would recommend holding back, you never know he might not be the right guy, and I am sure you don't want to walk away with nothing but a broken heart. xp
Ladycandy399 · Tue Jul 06, 2010 @ 08:48am · 0 Comments |