Okay, so I've been dancing for a certain company since kindergarten, and dancing has always been my favorite hobby. But this past year I moved to a new city and lets just say the girls didn't accept me. Well, they actually hated me. I thought, no matter what, dancing is my passion and they can't change that. But after being tormented and being called a home-wrecking boyfriend stealer for the entire season, it was too much for me. This one girl, McKenzie, she really had it out for me. Our last performance of the year, she and her friend scared me and tormented me so much that after a dance I ran out of the auditorium crying, vowing that as long as I had the choice, I would NEVER dance with them again. Now I have no choice but to stop dancing almost completely because that is the only company my parents could afford to have me dance in.
Today, my mom was looking through videos on FB and she found one of the dance team for my old high school (which I had been denied entrance twice after auditioning) and started watching it. I told her she could stop watching it at any time but she didn't listen to me so I went to my room so she couldn't see my tears. It just hurts so much because I won't be able to do what has kept me happy for so long.
Why is it that people can be this terrible? Its true that things are better for me in this bigger town, but there are still people with the same mentality. Can't they realize that I'm not the person that they think I am? Can't they get over themselves and see that other people have feelings too? It honestly takes every ounce of strength that I have to not completely let my feelings towards them come rushing out all at once. If only people could realize the pain they cause....
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