Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

yo. i....need.....a girlfriend. i do not know where that came from. but i need one. im for some reason really bad at askin girls out. i gess i just hav that basic fear of rejection. its just from all those girls i liked in middle skool who didnt lik me. but then there was that one girl. we were good frends and i could have asked her out. but instead i got scared and never asked. i did kiss her twice though. on the cheek and the forehed. I wonder how she is? theres another girl now. we frends but its a little too early to be asking her out. i hate being so hesitant. i analyze things sooo much i turn into a pessimist. also a girl from grade skool. in 5th grade i used to mess with her and sed "i liked her" i didnt though. in middle skool we talked on the fone and the last time we spoke she sed she truly wanted to b with me. she never called back as i expected. that was 7th grade. now we go to the same high skool. she hasnt changed much at all. wen i first saw her i went crazy and huggged her. she was all like...meen! then all her frends hate me. so now i dont talk to her. i see her at leest once a day. my frend is in her class. but i dont ask about her. he doesnt even know i know her. but if she dont wanna talk to me im not talkin to her. she wants to talk, we will but thats not gonna happen. anyway thats enuff of my pointless sad rant. dyron out. ninja ninja