rite now....my heart is empty. but head is so full it hurts. maybe....just maybe...if i move all of those thoughts to my heart. what would happen? huh? can u answer me that? i dont think so. i cant necessarily answer that myself! damn i hate this! this is aside i've never shown before. this is my depressed side. but by looking at me you'd never be able to tell. not even if u knew me. i always have the same bored look on my face. as if my mind is just as blank as my expression. but its not. its racing thinking of anything that makes sense to me. i want to love but im afraid. i want what i wont let myself have. how does that work? is it my fault? is there a girl truly for me? one i wont have to fake or hide my true form from. just to be together and be me. the real me. i play both me's so well i really dont know who ME is any more! am i that shy quiet sorta smart kid no one really knows except an incredibly small number of people outside of his family? or...am i the one you've come to know? random crazy hyper perverted...excuse me majorly perverted talented and strong enough to at least say more than a meek "hi" or a crappy wave to a girl whos beautiful as the sun is bright? help me......help. i wanna cry rite now. i really do. crying doesn't help not a goddamn thing. so ill continue to hold back these tears for as long as i have to. which may be a long long long time. yeah.
later.
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