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Depression I've been super depressed lately, because of some "friends" who stabbed me right in the heart for the second time... sigh I don't know why I keep coming back to them, but I feel that they deserve a second, and now third, chance. I just feel like killing myself right now though, not sure why. So many things happened at once and I think my mind had a breakdown today at school and I started bawling. Some help would be appreciated =] Thankies.

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Commented on: Mon Apr 28, 2008 @ 07:09pm


	you know what? no that word makes me feel so good a weight was lifted from me a huge 5000lb weight and it had a message attached to it when i went into mrs.carpentors office AFTER YOU TOLD ON ME FOR NOT BEING YOUR FRIEND ANYMORE!!!!!!! scream it said you think you've won,you think that because you told on me ill magically want to be your friend again, that some force will say izzy you did something wrong and my wasted caring would come back to me!!!!! no no no no no and of course who could forget NOOOOOOOOOOO lynsey didnt want to leave a message so she let the big bad me and all my PENT UP RAGE message on this for you we dont want you to give us a chance that sounds stupid i think you need to re-word that even if we wanted to be your friend again, maybe something like "give ME another chance" WE dropped YOU thats what you say!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no more chances no more emotional abuse and no more of this message, i feel ive made my point and btw i feel so much better.................

Commented on: Tue Apr 29, 2008 @ 04:51pm


	You know now I'm just at the point to where I'm gonna get my revenge since obviously you guys are too stuborn and stupid to see what I'm actually saying. You said you wanted to help me, but you lied. You're nothing but backstabbing, worthless liars. This is MY point I want to make: You guys acted like you wanted to help, but you really just felt sorry for me. You never wanted to help, only emotionally abuse ME when you got the first chance. I think you're the one at loss here, because frankly I think you need SERIOUS HELP.

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Commented on: Tue Apr 29, 2008 @ 05:24pm


	We aren't the ones hurting ourselves. And You emotionally abused us as well. That Golden Rule is more than a rule they teach at elementary. You know what I see? I see a conceded hypocrite looking for attention to drag us down to feel as bad as she is. But it's not going to work with us anymore. It was our decision and we couldn't undergo it anymore. You drove us almost into the pit of insanity.

Commented on: Tue Apr 29, 2008 @ 05:28pm


	I said you DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ME. how many times do i gotta say it? It's not hard, just leave me alone about it. I'm sorry for doing that but you don't care any more so im not gonna waste my breath pouring out the apology that i want to because you're just gonna turn and ignore it.

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Commented on: Tue Apr 29, 2008 @ 05:29pm


	I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry! There! I said what was on my mind and I'm tired of yelling at you guys, i love you guys and i can't take this any longer!

Commented on: Tue Apr 29, 2008 @ 06:52pm


	im sorry i got here a little late kairai look your just saying sorry because you dont want us to yell at you anymore you cant force us to be your friends anymore is what im saying and i understand what your saying your changed your finally seeing that theres something more important than your god damn razor but im not buying it its just one of those deals that i will regret later when im listening to your horrible life after my mom made me cry for the umptinth time, we were helping you to the point where it hurt us we were stressing and yelling and screaming i even cryed one night because i couldnt help someone who seriously needed it and if you dont believe me then fine i dont care ive cleared my point up and you still might not care you might even say that i dont understand your point and if you do then i think you might have to clear it up because i might be wrong and theres nothing wrong with me, im not some shallow lowlife whore who likes to make others feel sorry for her and who also likes to get negative attention even if it hurts my friends and my boyfriend,because to me my razor is my life and im willing to believe that til the day im put in some house with people who believe the computor is evil thats who im not, and thats who you are

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Commented on: Tue Apr 29, 2008 @ 07:21pm


	licks lips sweet sweet blood you will soon be mine...

Commented on: Tue Apr 29, 2008 @ 11:31pm


	freak thats it you need some serious help how dare you say we need help when your acting like some serial killer

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Commented on: Wed Apr 30, 2008 @ 02:52am


	freak? i've heard that alot... i've also heard psychopath and insane and mentally ill grins but how can one not resist the pleasure of the sweet taste of someone else's blood?

Commented on: Wed Apr 30, 2008 @ 11:24pm


	look your not a vampire vampires dont exist thats why we told on you for acting like this you need to go to a mentally ill house and you need to go fast if the school doesnt help within a week im telling your parents and if they do nothing, then im gonna alert a mental house or something and if you dont stop hissing at me i will get a restraining order put on you so leave me lynsey and jonathon alone!! and stop acting like a freak in 6th hour jon told me everything so stop your just trying to get attention stressed

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Commented on: Wed Apr 30, 2008 @ 11:53pm


	grins think what you must... but that foolish human at the school believes me... she believes that i'm a vampire... and good luck getting a restraining order, i'm sure your parents will go for it laughs

Commented on: Thu May 01, 2008 @ 12:15am


	Who? Are you talking about me? Cause I don't believe your a vampire. Your doing this all for attension. And you know what? It's working. Your getting the attension you want by making these comments. It's really sick and disgusting. NO ONE believes your a vampire. So get a real life that doesn't revolve around your imaginary friends or yourself. Mkay? Good.

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Commented on: Thu May 01, 2008 @ 12:23am


	****** you unlike you i love my parents i respect them and fight with them like normal teens do and my dad is a lawyer he'll go for it so just **** try me go ahead try me i dare you, and you keep living in this fantasy world i will get you help serious help and soon maybe i wont wait maybe ill just tell your parents right away gawd stop being like this everyone is saying you need help, serious help so leave me alone and go ****** yourself

Commented on: Thu May 01, 2008 @ 12:35am


	Woah! This was totally uncalled for. This all could be avoided if no one had became depressed! If no one had started cutting we would all be better. The world is a wonderful place. So why does everyone act like it's hell instead of Earth? It makes no sense to me! I've had an epiphany everyone! The world doesn't need any fighting. Though it will never be peacefully all the time we can help start the peace! Miruka, Stop jumping over the edge into the dark abyss (Sorry trying to get my point across) And Sukiko! Stop being this depressed little shell! I feel so much happier after I realized that there its hell any need to be sad! Yeah, I admit, my life has been hard. But I love it! I have caring friends. Some enemies but then again who doesn't!? I have a caring family who loves me and wants the best for me! I love my family too! Just because I hardly talk to them doesn't mean I can't do anything for them! The world is a great place and you only have one life to make it to the best extent possible! And who knows? Maybe reincarnation exists! Maybe we will have more lives to live, but there is only one us. Only one you and you are special in your own ways. But come on. Vampires. Don't exist. Even in my eyes, hoping and wanting them to be the person who sweeps me off my feet, I understand that will never happen. So I dare you all. I dare you all right now. To stop what your doing. Call or run to your parents. And tell them how much you love them and respect and appreciate them! I know I will! So hear me out everyone! Life doesn't stop one conflict at a time. It keeps on going, so we all need to keep up with it and live it to the best extent!

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Commented on: Thu May 01, 2008 @ 12:39am


	forget it lynsey ive relized she isnt gonna listen to a thing we say shes just gonna say "pitiful little humans im better than you" or something gay like that if she wants to play make-believe lets let her but like i said go ******** yourself raegan but then again she wont listen to anything you say or anything i say so who cares i still vow im gonna get you sent somewhere where you cant hurt anyone

Commented on: Thu May 01, 2008 @ 12:49am


	I have one question. one question to answer everything. why do you do the things you do? (as in cut attemtp suicide emotionaly abuse people act like a vampire. asnwer this question thats all you gottsa do.

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Commented on: Fri May 02, 2008 @ 11:39pm


	also THEY NEED HELP!?! have you ever even heard yourtself!? if there was onyl 1 person i the entire would who needs help ti would be you now seriously this is really stupid. your beig retarded. grow up

Commented on: Sat May 03, 2008 @ 01:11am


	HA someone younger than YOU told you to grow up and i agree with him(also laugh) that you need to grow up stuff like this(going mentally insane) will cost you more than you think..........................

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Commented on: Sat May 10, 2008 @ 04:29am


	i know i'm not a vampire. i went into a temporary state of insanity due to depression and lack of friends. i can see clearly now because i was in a MENTAL HOSPITAL. I cleared my mind. I am not depressed any more, i got rid of my anger issues, and my paranoia. I do not cut any more. I was hearing voices but they are gone now. This 8 day stay at the mental hospital really helped me out. I am more knowledgeable about things. And i now help people instead of being helped. And I'm sorry. I wanted to come back sooner but i knew i NEEDED to be there, i needed the help. So i'm asking as a new person, a changed person. A sorry person. Will you guys give me another chance? I'm truly sorry. I finally realized the error of my ways. I put too much on you guys, and I let you guys down. I really did. Thanks <3

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