My eyes tell me to cry. I want to, so badly. But to make sure that the ones I love are happy themselves, I must leave the tears behind and harden my heart, or what is left of it, my fears, and my broken dreams. They've fallen to peices, but that does not mean those of the ones I love and adore must fall to peices also. I do not want them getting hurt, and I do not want them to worry. However, their obliviousness to the situations at hand are some of the reasons I want to cry. Their obliviousness to what I feel, which either means they don't care about me, or I'm a better actress then I then I thought I was. I wish the pain would go away.
I smile through my tears to throw people off, but the pain I really feel does not show until I am alone.
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