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i can take one betrayal and turn my life around. It took a while before i felt like me again...before i could open up even a bit to people again. she took a piece of me i may never get back...the trust i should have with those closest to me is gone...the one i told everything to...my secrets my wants....it almost broke me completely. around a year later i was able to stand again and open to those i trust...though not in the same depth....and today i found i was betrayed again. another once loyal friend abandoned me for the fleeting friendship of the first traitor. how should i come back from this? how is it fair? he once pledged himself to be my friend and now he acts for my enemy? telling my secrets when he thinks i won't find out? it disgusts me and i find myself spiraling into myself. is there no one to listen to help me? is there anyone left i would tell anyway? i am a broken doll once again and this time i can't even bring myself to cry...not yet anyway...for the pain is still to real. how can this be? is there any way to mend this second wound? its cut me deep, though the offense is less severe, the consequence is twice as bad. my old wound reopened and a new one to go with it. a matching pair....and i betray myself, for i so longed to trust them again. all i have left in me now is despair.
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