Pain
Someone hurt me today. I did what my mother said I should do: I went to my room. I put tissue to my eyes when the tears formed and covered my mouth before the sobs swelled. I came back and sat down with the people and I sat up and I smiled. I laughed with the person who hurt me, smiled at them, shook my head at them. I was sweet, courteous and compelling to the point of tears. It ate away at me inside, but I did it, and thus an unpleasant situation was avoided. The person who hurt me got no satisfaction, and no one else was the wiser. Mommy said that I will die faster this way, but she most certainly was right...it makes the going a bit smoother, even if I am the one who must pay for it in the end.
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