I should have never mixed myself into this mess. I never should have opened such a door. I am right here and not over there. I love them indeed and her as well but THIS DOES NOT concern me. I could help but I know my place now. I WILL NOT. There are too many sides and I know I should trust each side but I need to be there to be able to support one side. I end it right here, locking it shut with a kiss. Good-bye spinning nightmare. The only support you shall find is my embrace. I can only comfort and nurse with this battle. WAR NURSE Station!
I started a playlist on playlist.com that I'm not sure if I ever want to complete. I think it might be my downer activity.
My mother comes down to visit tomorrow. We are going to Wicked this Saturday but her friends aren't coming until then so we are spending Friday together. She doesn't like the city much. -Le sigh- I love her but still... I wonder how this weekend will fare. She has her days like the rest of us I suppose.
I should say more but my head has stopped spinning so I feel better. I just want to cherish this peace that has arrived. Earlier I was so flustered and swirling I couldn't think straight so I put in Fox and the Hound. I have always hated that movie. I thought it ended a different way than it does. Now I just ... feel empty for hating it so long.
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Fragmented Self who wanders through life like a dreamer and wades through the river of dreams as though it were the only truth left in this world
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