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Wayne, I ******** hate you.
I hope you choke.
Cause every time I see you
I choke.
You've made this the worst time of my life.
You are silent and suffocating.
Go ******** yourself.

Wayne, I ******** love you.
I hope you don't choke up
When you talk to me.
You've made this the best time of my life.
You are dark and mysterious.
When you go ******** yourself,
I hope you're thinking of me.

Make up your mind. Do you love me, or not? Just say so.
Cause you know all too well that I do. So are you just that afraid of rejection? Rejection when I love you? You are just stupid. Why would you try so hard to find me in the first place? Did you really want to? Or not. I'm afraid of rejection too. Not as much as you though, apparently. So you told him, and that other guy too. Why not me? Maybe you don't. Maybe my feelings are to naught. If I ever talk to you again, what will you say? Say it whole heartedly? Probably not. Not you, anyway. We had a connection, this feeling has gone too far. If I ever see you again, It's gotta slow down. I'm begining to hate you, I'm glad you're leaving. I'm sad you are leaving. I hope you are happy with her. I hope that she ******** hates your guts. I hope you get crushed by your own aspirations, like I did.

You tell everyone that you are such an a*****e. Are you really? I've never seen that side of you. Is it because you don't want me to see that side of you? Or is it because you are just too nice to show your a** holed side, like how you were oh so sweet to another nice stranger? You sure were an a*****e to a few people I know. Why not me, then? You are so confusing. Confusing me. Tell me, Wayne. Tell me everything. I know I'm not supposed to, but then I can tell you everything. Make this pain of mine end, please Wayne.

Dumbass.
I love you.