I stare off into the distance, watching the world desolve around me. Nothing exists anymore, not in my mind. I feel numb to even hatred now, to annoyance. There is one emotion that will not leave me so long as she is around. But that doesn't fix the fact that I can only see through the eyes of a dream. I don't understand this need, the one that makes me imagine myself breaking and damaging people. I remember the sound of gargling in their own blood. I've heard it once before outside of my imagination. I remember the smell of burning flesh, once again, I've witnessed it once before. As I pass the mirror, I always inspect my eyes, to understand why I have never seen anything other than this dream. To see if they are still human. I see the world for what it really is, but it seems so terrible it can't be real. Perhaps I have some fears that even I do not know about...
Desilude · Thu Apr 14, 2011 @ 02:16pm · 0 Comments |