It is odd isn't it, the closer you get to people the less you want to speak of the darkest part of your mind. When you know they will understand, or at least you think. They could play it out like they do but they could be hiding their pain, just as you had planned to.
Sometimes it is better to speak these dark parts of your mind to someone you don't much know, almost a total stranger, someone you know nothing about and they know nothing about you. Maybe it is because you know they won't care, they don't know you so they won't have many things to say back other than that they understand how it feels because they've been through it themselves.
Sometimes it feels better to open your mind to complete strangers, because it lets you know there are still some compassionate people out there other than your normal group, that you and your loved ones arn't the only people with feelings left in the world.
Perhaps it is all the fear of being judged, or the fear that you will lose someone dear. Than again we lose someone dear anyway, whether we speak it or not.
Over time if this isn't let out, we lose them, and ourselves in the process...
Loved ones will help you out of all that they can, it is good to have people who care around. But sometimes it may not have as much meaning, because you already know that they'll do anything to help you, even if it means they will lie to you and praise you when there is nothing to be praised for.
^.^ This stuff pops up in my head and brings me down normally, but in deeper thought, to know I have such understandings of the human concious and emotions, I've surprised myself this time.
 Desilude · Tue May 31, 2011 @ 05:23pm · 0 Comments |
