I was so dumb yesterday...I stayed up supar late hoping that she'll get on, even for a little bit. I had no clue I was gonna work from 8 to 1 the next day...Thought it was gonna be from 11 to 1. I stayed up until 12 and finally fell asleep...And I almost overslept.
Holy shizz, that was the first time I ever overslept, er, almost overslept for work. I literally had like 15 mins before my shift started and the only reason why I woke up was because my brother wanted to know when do I go to work, I opened my eyes, looked at my alarm clock, and told him Right naooooooooooooo...That was a horrible feeling.
Rolling out of bed late, don't have time to do your hair, and I didn't even have time to frigging brush my teeth. I putted on a wrinkly a** button up with no tie. Man, I was scurred as shizz. But I actually made it on time. Clocked in and went to the bathroom to groom up a bit Hahaa...Got my hair a little wet, washed my face, did all of the things I should've done when I was supposed to wake up at like 6 am or something.
But I was tired as hell..And I was being bad by staying up. I don't think anybody noticed that I was rushing to work. I looked scrubby and tired as hell...Hahaaaa..Shoulda went to sleep early Za but you kept waiting for something that wasn't gonna come that night. razz
So pretty much, yesterday, I woke up early in the morning, took some fugly a** pictures, posted them, got dressed and went to work at 10. Didn't come back until 7:30 pmish. Me and my sister was talking a bit about me buying a laptop since my other one burnt out...Expensive as hell nowadays...The maximum that I want to spend it 500. And that's not even the "best best" type laptops..Other ones are 1,000 and shizz. It just blows my mind away.
Right now, Mai's dedicated hmong song just played. xd
She rlly is short. Shorty Asian! xd
Yeah, that's right, I added it to my favorites. Why? I like it and oddly enough, it's how I feel about her. D:
But she's sooooooo scared.
I was such a jerk to her. I know what she meant when she said it's like another nail on the coffin with the phrase "Let's just be friends". Yeah..That hurts a lot. Maaaaaan...What can I do to show her I won't EVER hurt her? Any suggestions? Ugggghhh...The guilt still kills me today. It kills me everyday...I want her to trust me.
I want her to know that I won't ever hurt her like that again.. :l
So, I'm home alone.
I don't rlly know what else to write or what to say.,.She knows how I feel about her and I know how she feels about me..Only thing that I can do is hope that she forgives me for the pain that I caused her. And that she'll give us a chance.
I told her that my heart is in the palm of her hand now..I hope she dun break it. :l
It's gonna suck a lot if she do..
Ugh, I don't know. Only thing I can do is wait for her..Although I understand where she's coming from..It's up to her now..It's outta my hands. D:
I know relationships have their ups and downs..I just hope that, we can get past that.. I'll add in more when I feel like it..Or just post another journal.
Thanks for reading. I don't hide feeling's or anything. :l
So, I'm a straightforward guy, ya dun like that, oh well. ><
We had a heart to heart..I'm glad I got almost everything off my chest..She still wants to think, and I can understand why. She knows how much I love her. I trust her..Hopefully she won't hurt me. (;
Mai, I'm going crazy ova hur. D:
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