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I've been thinking... about whether I could request art from people or not... it would mean I need to draw more... get some examples of my characters.

I have sketches of almost all of them... in one form or another [/ sigh] It's... a weird reluctance

The Four Stories in mind are:
1. Nine Lives
2. After Dark
3. (( Calendar Girls ))
4. (( "The Twelve" ))

Nine Lives - the Nekomimi story about a circus that centers around the Ringmaster and two Trapeze Artists
After Dark - a zoo that has animals that change into half beings, which centers around Duality
Calendar Girls is unnamed - about a group of women as they meet through unusual connections after November joins their art club ( main group is November, September, December, January, and October )
The Twelve is unnamed - my old OC's that are in a Kingdom that has fallen out of balance, centers around Princess Sakura, Pirate Elimindra and the Prince

>.> people don't really ask about my stories. They've kinda been... silently waiting. I've kept them tucked away cause there is nothing I can do with them. I've learned that turning these into roleplays is generally a bad idea. My one exception I hope will be Nine Lives... but even that seems to be failing. I've used it for a 1x1 and that is super interested. Silleh is fun and well, it is challenging for me, which is a good thing. It's hard for me not to be attached to Ryan... I play both Ryan and his rival the other Trapeze artist u___u

[/ sigh] Jen is forced to go to class. Jen did not do the homework. Motivation is killing me. This class... what is the point? What has it taught me? Symbols are important [/ sarcasm] Y'know I know I need to know what different kinds of symbols there are, but can't you make it more interesting and hands on b***h? Like give a quiz or something online even! ********! >.> Just thinking about it pisses me off. I just remember my art class and ... [/ sigh] critique everything. "It's not my job to help you remember the info or motivate you" ******** YOU! You want me to pass ur class and teach me ******** something? Hmm b***h?!@NCwnrkav fusnvejrngsdvhe ******** YOU SCHOOL SYSTEM! I CANNOT LEARN LIKE THIS! I CANNOT DO WELL! I AM BEING CORNERED!

Like, I know I don't want to be perfect and I purposefully like foil my own attempts but you could make it harder for me... you really could. You could give me teachers who care about me and like... [/ sigh] I hate you. I just... this is why you drove me to such despair. I felt this before. I've felt this over and over again. "It's not my job" then who's is it? Is it mine? Was it my fault that I have not made changes? Yes, yes it is. It is my fault. I couldn't change. I'm too stubborn now.

[/ flips table in the air] ******** YOU! I'm NOT THINKING EDLNweufnsejfhsvb wff wejfw hgate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate