Well a lot has happened since my last entry! SO SO much and I hope I can even remember half of what happened but here I go. Wow where do I start haha. We have a new store manager at my chevron, he is an odd guy and is trying way to hard to 'establish' that he is in charge. It is actually a little annoying because I already know he is in charge, its the fact that he is trying to hard that get me. I have officially been assigned to work with my other cashier Erik.. Permanent assignments.. I have a lot of issues with him personally. Now that I'm forced to always work with him alone I have found myself biting my tongue and tuning him out with my headphones. I feel bad but if I could explain myself you would understand why he drives me up a freggin wall. Then there is one of my xbox live friends who is practically obsessed with me and constantly call me at any hour of the day.
I guess its fine but it is really annoying when your phone goes off at nine in the morning when you just fell asleep around five in the morning. I have used quiet hours on my phone but it has a feature that when the same number calls three times it opens the quiet hour mode and the call breaks through. It has happened every morning and it bugged me when I answered and he had a conference call with one of his stupid a** friends that I really despise. I am not one to chew out people even if I am cranky but I let them both have it and hung up and that ruined my whole day. Now he knows better and hasn't been as persistent but yeah it got to me a few times. Lets see this past week was really big for me, I had a really big tennis tournament so I was out on the courts practicing my heart out and it felt amazing to be playing again. I also invested in some wireless ear buds and they are the greatest I am really proud of myself.
So originally I had planned to stay in Albuquerque the whole weekend to save money. I figured it would make a lot more sense since my hometown is an hour drive from it. Well I ended up spending a lot more because the host of the tournament was being a little b***h and couldn't afford to stay in a hotel or afford gas, or afford food. He literally has to be the stupidest and most irresponsible person in existence and should have known better. He is a grown a** old man and a leech. I have a lot of resentment towards him and he constantly boasts about being there my senior year of high school during tennis. Saying that I am his 'Protégé' while I blew my way through his tournament roster he kept telling people that. I almost won first place but by that championship round of day three was exhausted and pretty messed up, I had rolled both my ankles, my hand split open so my grip was weakend and the blisters on my feet were all causing me pain. So it sucked and I almost beat that guy.
Back to my friend who I SUPPORTED this weekend. That man is a not in any position to talk about me like that. He can be proud of me for taking second in his tournament but I am not his protégé, never in the history of my existence will I ever let him hold that title, I am self made. I am on the surge to go pro and I am planning to take this ship all the way to top and I plan on going far. Anyways. While I was at this tourney I met a lot of good players, there is a tennis pro here in my hometown that offered me an apprentice spot to instruct and coach juniors! Then the man I lost to in the championships also offered me his information to apply at the rec center in Los Alamos! I got two career defining opportunities from nearly winning the 3.5 roster in the new mexico games! I am so proud of myself and I plan to only keep going up. One of my friends also is interested in becoming my doubles partner so I can do more events in future tourneys! So I am really excited about that.
Lets see here is what really has me distracted though... my stupid trial is coming up on Wednesday. Technically tomorrow since I am writing this at 1:30am so I am really in a terrified mood. I cannot even begin to describe my depression levels right now.. I have chewed off all my nails.. lost hair.. chewed open the skin along my fingers and blisters on my hand. I am a legitimate disaster... I am alone in this endeavor and I always have been alone and it is not going to change ever. I am alone and will need to accept that as my fate. Its okay because what I need to do now is get college out of the way, and push my tennis career to Pro status. It is decided. On a side note, I have also been enjoying a much bigger variety of music I have discovered that I like this genre called Electro Swing, Right now I am enjoying a new song I discovered called "Off with their heads" by the Yeah Yeah Yeahs. I usually get hung up on new songs and this is the one im hung up on right now haha the singer is actually kinda cute, way out of my league but yeah haha great song!
Well I guess I am done for now, once this court issue is passed I think everything will be back to normal for me. I hope. Ending Transmission.
 voxx_iota · Tue Jun 23, 2015 @ 08:30am · 0 Comments |
