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Ok, I haven't posted in a few days or weeks, I can't remember, but I figured it was time to hop back on and return to my loyal fans. Joke. No, honestly, I just had some thoughts I wanted to get out of my head so I can focus on the here and the now. Well, the main thing I'm going to write about only happened like a minute and a half ago, but still, I think it will end up haunting me for the rest of the week if I don't get it out. Nothing serious. I was just finally able to relate to this one song on the radio that I've never been able to relate to before. It's by Sugar Ray, it's either When it's over, or I Wish you Knew or something. If you know sugar ray, you know those are two of the main lyrics of the song, and that's the closest I can come to naming the song. But anyway, in case you have no idea what I'm talking about, the main premise of the song is a story of a guy who blew his chance with some girl, he always had just said they were friends, there was nothing between them, but then he found out that she liked him too, and now he's regretting never telling the person that he cared about her. Well, right now I'm just going through this time with this one person I know, and I don't know if they like me back, or whatever, but I mean, it's like worse than a just friends scenario, it's like, I'm lucky if I talk to the person once a week, but everytime I do, they just blow me away...sweep me off my feet...carry me off into the sunset. heart No one else in my life stacks up. But, I mean, seeing as I'm just a fan, and almost a complete stranger, if I were to confess my attraction, it would be totally awkward. But at the same time, nothing lasts forever, and I'm sure one day I'll end up having to say goodbye to the person and it will break my heart....or even worse they'll say goodbye to me and I'll be left in the dust, crying. Lol. I laugh, but this is kinda serious. I feel for this person so deep, and it's not like they don't know I exist, but there's not much about me they know, and they haven't really fronted any definite stance either way, which really says that I'm not all that close to knowing them either. But that doesn't stop my heart. Love is blind and it is stronger than your mind.....it will take over your soul, make you whole.....make you cry and swear.....make you grab at your hair.....make you bite at your nails.....put the wind in your sails.....it will drive you and push you.....and scare you to death....it will choke you and drown you til you can't catch your breath. It's bad and it's good....and sometimes it's great.....that is of course unless it's too late. But what can you do...you can't choose your fate.....unless you are God, you can't choose your mate. Hey, that wasn't that bad. I thought I'd get halfway through and be like, ok ******** it, that was gay, but I think I'll keep it. Apart from it being genuinely how I feel, I needed something to break this up, keep it from being too serious and dull like most people's journal. I went more into me and my life this time than I normally do, so things weren't so interesting, I know, so I gotta keep whoever's reading from falling asleep on their keyboard. Ewwe, drool soaked space bars are never a good thing. But thanks for listening. I kinda don't want to go into anything really too light hearted like I usually do, because I don't want to compromise the integrity of this entry, but I do have news and opinions that I will share soon....maybe tomorrow since I have the day off. But I think this is going to be it for now. I have to clean before my parents get back. But I did think of a pretty cool saying I may follow on off days that someone might want to hear for inspiration. When your working, or even just looking for another job, think to yourself, work for a purpose, not for a paycheck. It's probably not original, but according to me, I'm the one who thought it first. Lol. Anyway, I think it might work for me whenever I get really tired of closing up the store every feakin' night. Ugh. Oh well, see ya.
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