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The other night my mother got talking about old high school memories (I’ll spare the cumbersome details of how she got talking about them). She started out telling me about a time her and a friend went T.P.ing and, like most of the time when talking of memories, one subject led to another, and she got on the subject of her past boyfriends/male admirers. I knew my mother had two longer-term boyfriends in high school, and many shorter term boyfriends in between, and that she was quite a b***h in high school (luckily she has matured some, but it’s hard to lose all of your bitchy ways, if you know what I mean), but I guess I never really knew the extent of her ways. She told me about this one boy who had a huge crush on her. I guess everyday when he arrived at school from skill center, he would bring her lunch. Every…single…day! My mom wasn’t interested in him at all, but she used him, leading him on so she could get lunches, or anything else he would buy her. One day she said that she wanted whatever they were serving at the school for lunch, so she just took the lunch this boy had bought her and threw it away right in front of him! She also said that he had asked her to prom, and she had agreed, but then a week before prom she told him that she changed her mind and didn’t want to go with him. What a b***h! The guy still talked to her and pursued her after all of this too, so that kind of makes me lose some sympathy for him though. Do you know how much I crave for a guy to give me that much attention?! I would absolutely love to have a guy so desperate to win me over that he would bring me lunch everyday! I couldn’t even get a friend to go with me to prom, and she has the luxury of ditching one guy and going with another. It kind of makes me sick. It’s so unfair that she acted like such a b***h but yet she still gets tons of guys lined up to woo her. I wouldn’t use anyone like that. I mean, maybe my thoughts on this come because I haven’t had guys lined up at my feet, but it scares me to think that maybe if I would have always had opportunities like my mother had I might have used guys. I sincerely hope I’ve always naturally been a better person than that though. Another thing she talked about was how she made one of her long-term boyfriends take her to a movie every Friday and Saturday. She said he even pawned a couple of his rifles so he would have money to take her places. Not that I would make a guy do that, but I’d love to have a guy willing to sell his possessions just to do things with me. She had also told me before that one of her boyfriends did something to piss her off, so she made him write “I’m sorry,” or something to that extend, 100 times. And the poor guy did it! Can you believe it?! Once again, that makes me kind of lose sympathy for him. I’m nowhere near that high maintenance and I can’t get a guy. It’s just so unfair. My uncle can definitely be a jerk, so it scares me that both my mother and her brother can have very mean and selfish personalities. I can be a b***h and be selfish at times (but who isn’t), but I don’t think I’m anywhere near as mean as my mother or my uncle. It scares me to think that I might be and don’t realize it though. I sincerely hope I’m not. I just feel so different than my mother sometimes. I know she can never understand how painful my lack of a love life can be at times because she’s never experienced that. Anyways, she must have saw I was looking melancholy, or sensed she might have been being insensitive, because she concluded her boyfriend reveries by telling me that I’ll meet lots of boys in college. The closer I get to college starting though, the more I find that hard to believe. Sure, there will be tons of new guys to meet, but there will also be tons of new girls for them to meet as well, most of them being way prettier than I am. I’m pretty sure I don’t stand a chance.
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