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9/3
" Some day, that man will come into your life and he'll love you as much as you love him or even greater. He'll definitely cherish all the little things and tell you about them in the future just so you two can have something to look back and laugh on. Someone who won't hesitate to answer you on the first ring and talk with you every night until you both fall asleep. Who will still love you when there are fights. "

TELL YOU YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL EVERY NIGHT WHEN YOU SLEEP AND KISS YOU GOODNIGHT.

And understand you like you understand me. I apologize for not being able to be that person

Even tho I ended things, I still read your horoscope daily cause I care about your well-being. not a day goes by that I don't think about you for awhile.

How have you been... it's been so quiet lately and things have finally settled for me, I hope you're okay on a mental and physical level

I ruined everything, I feel very guilty knowing that you still blame yourself, I push ppl away because I have always been by myself, each break up leads me to be more isolated and hate keeping up a convo because I feel as if nobody'd interested or understands

9/12
I am deeply sorry Angie.... I hate myself for not being true to you, my feelings from the past hurts me every night and I regret letting that overcome me because you truly deserve much greater than what i have gave in return. Maybe my feelings were tired of the same pain, it have decided to run away from me for good. (When you've been hurt so much, you don't know how to feel anymore) I am sorry that I have wasted your time and your friendship. I loved every moment of how silly we can be, Even if we don't talk as much, I still think of you all the time and picture how hurt you are because I know how much you like me. You fell harder each day as I try to find myself again. I truly understand how you feel because I have been there plenty of times. You have a very, very beautiful soul. I swear you are perfect. I am ashamed I found you just a bit late. You hide your feelings as if they are nonexistent. You forgive like no other. I am sorry Angel. I never meant to turn you away. I can't seem to allow myself to open up anymore. Maybe because I have always been alone, that's why I have been so distant. Maybe I wasted my time too long just to find that someone who is you. Maybe I am afraid to fall again. Sorry I only disappoint you each day. I care much more than I wrote to you and show. I'm never too good for you, I'm just a mess right now because my emotion is mixed with everything that is happening around me. You probably didn't know but I lost my sister last Nov and I still haven't gotten over it. With her being gone.... I had become very emotional and sensitive towards the little things around me that everything just reminds me of her.

" We hurt the people we love because of our pain. "