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I really don't feel like typing my stories right now...I'm tired and feel like reading more at this point. I've got this really good WWII book I've gotta finish up that's like 800 pages long, and it's got some excellent stories in it. I've been listening to music and thinking alot lately (no surprise there).

I've realized how many people you don't expect to actually be cowards turn out to be so. Sad really, I must say and I'm tired of waiting for people to get over their yellow bellied ways. They cringe when they see you only because they never expected some one to actually want to listen. They've hidden behind masks of foolish ideas and fake images they expected others to run away from and when someone doesn't run, they're intimidated and have got nothing to say in return to back up the persona. I don't run from things I don't understand, because I want explanations. They have no reason to hate me for that. Although they may not want to act on their instincts and follow through; why do they push people away?

They say they do not judge and yet they do and it's for moronic reasons such as 'I can't help but hate them' when they know nothing about the person. I can't judge people, because too many judge me and it will only make matters worse to follow them as well. They say they want people to understand their ideas and principles and yet then they don't follow through and tell.

I don't tell the things people say to me all...I'm not that kind of girl and frankly I'm not like any kind of girl, so why do many set stereotypes? Some live behind stereotypes while I haven't got a category and so I'll make one up as I go along. I'm quiet in real life yet I write alot of things that no one even reads. Somethings I don't even place on Gaia, I've got too many words and pages to do that, and most of it is too boring (in my opinion) to even post. Most of it is just crap that runs through my head and I have to just get it out to look at it from a different angle.

Beliefs don't scare me and clearly don't bother me whatsoever. I don't care what anyone thinks so long as it doesn't hurt anyone physically or mentally... (emotionally, who gives a crap?). As long as it does not impinge upon another's rights I'm good as gold to people (speaking ideas is different than acting on them). I don't care what religion or belief a person has as long as they don't view theirs superior to someone else's.

To tell the truth I laughed at my old sunday school teachers when they said things like 'God views us above 'such and such' religion because we believe in him' I laughed outright and they looked at me strangely. A lot of teachers didn't like me at the old private school because I asked too many questions about other religions instead of my own. I understood my own for the most part, so why should I ask about it when I knew about it already? Their ideas were far too close minded and didn't cover a broad enough range. The only answer they usually had for my questions was "because that's how it is" and that was never good enough for me.

I guess I'll just have to live with people like that and don't let it get to me sweatdrop .
11:35...time for bed, so I don't get grounded xd .