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I went to my school's drama club play. It was really good, but I'm not here to write about how it was. Jamie, the infamous Justin's sister, was in the play this year. I figured her parents would be there to watch, and I wondered if Justin would be with them. I watched the entrance, but I didn't see him, and I didn't know what her parents looked like, so I figured he wasn't there. Then, during intermission, I happened to scan the crowd, and there, across the room two or three rows behind me, he sat. My heart skipped a beat. I seriously felt like I could cry. I don't know what came over me all of a sudden. I didn't know how I would feel about seeing him again, but I didn't think I would feel that bad since I considered myself pretty much over him. From what I could see, he looked pretty much the same. Same adorable flippy hair, still wearing that sexy fedora. It just felt like a few of those crude stitches I had put in my heart popped at the seams. I didn't know if I should try to "accidentally" run in to him when we were leaving or not. I didn't see them when we left (they had probably went backstage to congratulate Jamie), so I was kind of relieved the decision was made for me.

It just didn't feel nice to have those feeling again. I could finally think about him with only a minimal stabbing sensation in my chest, and I stopped having dreams about him. I just really thought and hoped I wouldn't feel that way again when I looked at him. I've just never liked anyone to near the degree that I liked him. I guess that's what happens when you like someone that much.